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Why cant I do it?!

Every cell in my mind is telling me to STOP

I remember when I first saw you sitting on that chair

I was so young

You practically watched me grow up like

5,4,3,2,1, those numbers 215301 are practically etched in my brain.

1^st love hurts the worst so why does number 3 hurt like this?

I want to hurl myself on the floor

And I want you to pick me back up again

The pieces of our relationship too

Ooh there goes when I cheated!

Ooh there goes the 1^st kiss!

There goes the 1^st time I looked upon your face!

The 1^st time you were in me it felt so damn right

Lord knows we were wrong. I don’t want the next man to hate me

I want to regret giving myself. But I cant.

The things that we’ve done I never want to do again

I don’t ever want to think about loving you.

But if I didn’t love you why would I be crying right now?

Why would I even write 465 words of emotional bullshit?

I don’t even know.

I don’t know why I can remember that you never brush your teeth before bed.

I don’t know why I remember the good and you remember the bad.

I don’t know why I even gave it a chance.

Was I ready then, am I ready now?

Cmon now a sista shouldn’t know how to survive?

Why cant I just be smart and wrestle with logic

Instead of with emotions?

I just wanna strangle the shit out of you

And bring you back with a kiss of life.

You gave me life.

Now I want it back.

Im 18.

You’re 19.

1 year 5 months and 25 days we’ve been together.

I’ve loved you 1 year, 9 months and 8 days…

I want myself and my life back starting today.

awkwardblackgirl:

but you need to understand that i’m not who you think i am.

No matter how long winter is. Spring is sure to follow

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pocockhontas:

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Tell me about it.

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Muthafuckas dont love you. They love you when you everything that they like in somebody but Lord, dont change!! 

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